Tenth Avenue North “Losing”

I chose this song because it brought my heart to tears. I remember hearing it for the first time; I had to restart it because I thought I heard the lyrics wrong. I did not understand, at first, what the singer was saying. Was this a Christian song? What is this song about? Then, after a couple of restarts in the middle of the song, it clicked. The song was about me. It was about me not forgiving others. It was about me holding others accountable to me. It was about how I wanted to be the judge. I realized two things at that moment: 1) I have a choice: choose to forgive or not; and 2) not forgiving others is makes me miserable; I am the one losing.

I can't believe what she said
I can't believe what he did
Oh, don't they know it's wrong
Don't they know it's wrong
Well maybe there's something I missed
But how could they treat me like this
It's wearing out my heart
The way they disregard

This is love or this is hate...
We all have a choice to make

Oh, Father wont You forgive them
They don't know what they've been doin' (oh no)
Oh Father, give me grace to forgive them
Cause I feel like the one losin'

Well it's only the dead that can live
But still I wrestle with this
To lose the pain that's mine
Seventy times seven times
Cause Lord it doesn't feel right
For me to turn a blind eye
Though I guess it's not that much
When I think of what You've done.

This is love or this is hate...
We gotta a choice to make

Oh Father won't You forgive them
They don't know what they've been doin' (oh no)
Oh Father, give me grace to forgive them
Cause I feel like the one losin'

Why do we think that our hate's gonna break a hard heart
We're rippin arms over wars that don't need to be fought
Cause pride wont let us lay our weapons on the ground
We build our bridges up but it's just to burn them down
We think our pain is own apologies and get them to stop
Well truth be told it doesn't matter if their sorry or not
Cause freedom comes when we surrender to the sound
Of Your mercy and Your grace, Father, send Your angels down

Oh Father wont you forgive them
They don't know what they've been doin'
Oh Father, give me grace to forgive them
Cause I feel like the one losin'
I feel like I've been losing

Oh Father wont you forgive them
They don't know what they've been doin'
Oh Father, give me grace to forgive them
Cause I feel like the one losin'
I feel like I've been losing

Oh Father, give me grace to forgive them
Cause I feel like the one losin'

Source: Musixmatch

Songwriters: Mike Donehey / Jeff Owen / Ruben Juarez

Losing lyrics © Sony/atv Timber Publishing, Formerly Music, West Main Music, Prepare For The Zombie Apocalypse